Vayam

People sounds too “Nirjiv”, it’s about souls around me. There is a dedicated “vertical” in literature which handles these types of write-ups. God has created every individual unique; there can’t be 2 identical persons. So when you were going to school, college or while you are working; you meet so many interesting, lovable, cute, intelligent, arrogant, selfish, dull, dumb, happy-go-lucky, aloof, (the list is endless…) people. Each one of us can come up with a book on them J
There is set of people, who live in their cocoon, if you are able to break that or barge into it, you would discover so many beautiful interesting things about them that you would curse their habit of keeping themselves “shielded”.

Then there is another category called as “Jagan-Mitra”, these folks just enter into your life as your childhood, youth make their path. You don’t even realize when you met for the first time and when it turned into “a true friendship”.

Then there are certain people, who will be “happy-go-lucky”. I call them angels or “gandharv”. When they are around you forget everything, their company is so much fulfilling that they spread happiness around their “sphere of influence”. These are really God’s children, who are far far away from all the treachery, deceit, jealousy or some kind of bad vibes. You just want to enjoy their company. They do not categories for friends, they think in the same way for a person whom they met in the bus just an hour back or a friend from childhood.

Didn’t I mention just so called “good” people around us, where are the “bad” sets? Actually they don’t exist, they are just the perception. What the F***? You don’t live in ideal world, you don’t live in “Satya-Yug”… there is this set very much in existence. Okay okay, I agree, but have you ever thought that you might be in the same set for someone? Have you ever thought that, what would be feeling of a “Killer” for his own son? Does that mean that “Killer” would be bad for his son as well? Or let’s put it in other way, “Is that Killer’s son is able to understand the bigger picture?”

Why are we even thinking about this… the reason I am mentioning is because it’s all about perception, situation and our view-point. Our point-of-view changes about situations, people when any of the above mentioned 3 things’ orientation changes. The Good, The Bad, play their role as it has been written, many times scripted because of our deeds of previous birth or our current deeds. If we apply physics, mathematics or any modern science, we can very well understand this. How come sins committed by me will go without any account balance? This is something which should be left for individual’s “chintan-manan”…

Whatever I wrote till now was kind of monologue. When I was portraying some characters, I felt like “who am I to typecast someone?” Then the answer comes as you are “You” who should try and understand the complicated equation of differentiation where limit is tending to ∞ (both + and -) and we trying to deduce our “I” and then integration again ranging from +∞ to -∞ of all our deeds and finally get the value of 0 which is

“Om, Purn mad:, Purnam midam,
purnat purn mudacchate.
Purnasya purn maday,
purna mewawshishyate”.

ते वादळ...

ते वादळ आलं ती बहुदा मुळे आणखिन घट्ट करायला
तुमच्य़ा आत्म्याला हलवुन दाखवुन द्यायला तुमची शक्ति
आणि मग त्या थ्योड्या मोकळ्या झालेल्या मातीमधे परत घट्ट रुजवायची मुळे झाडाने

उगाचच वादळाला दोष दिला तेंव्हा
त्याने तर मदतच केली होती आपल्याला, अधिक द्रुढ बनायला
सारं आकाश, जमीन आणि अंत:करण यातल्या कचरयाचा निचरा करायला

मग तोच उडालेला कचरा गोल गोल फ़िरून दमला आणि शांतपणे दूर जाउन बसला
आता सारं काहि स्वच्छ झालय… परत एकदा वळवाचा पाऊस पडणार आहे
त्या पहिल्या म्रुदगंधामधे मोर नाचणार आहे… मंत्रमुग्ध होऊन…

That was drive without reason

It was a normal evening, I thought of going somewhere or probably nowhere. I started from my home thinking about a place where there will at least “some amount” of peace, where I can look at sky without listening to horns from bikes or cars, where I can smell the fresh air, where I can hear to the different voices of birds, where I can hear whispering leaves… I stopped at different signals; I was watching people on bikes, in cars, walking on the road, few houses which were adjacent to roads.
I could see everyone running behind something or running with the clock. Everyone had sense of urgency to reach to some hotel, to meet friends, family or to attend informal/formal meeting to continue the business decisions.

There were so many houses which were not flats or apartments. I could see people waiting for something, either they were looking for Auto-Rickshaws or someone was going to pick them up. Some of them were parents in their late 50s or early 60s; I guess they were looking for someone who would care for them. There were girls and boys who were waiting for their “love” or their friends with whom they were planning the dinner. There were friends of all ages completely submerged into their "circle of concern" happily chatting and laughing. There were kids playing on the road, in houses or in schools who were totally free of any tensions, their game was so important that everyone was playing to win.

I reached a place which I thought would be the ideal place where I can see Pune city in its entirety. I parked my bike and started going towards the hill, to my surprise there were herds of people who were going up and down. Probably my guess was wrong for the place where I can find the serenity of nature.

By the way why was I looking for something rather what was I looking for? Was it just me? Why do I have time to think about all this? Is it lack of friends? Is it lack of planned outings? Or is it something bigger than that lack of Goal? I remember some statement which says “It is easy to die for something but it is really worth living entire life for something” – “śalabha bana jalanā sarala hai, prema kī jalatī śikhā par | svayaṁ ko til-til jalā kar, dīpa bananā hī kaṭhin hai”

The effect of Inception hasn’t gone yet so I tend to relate some things to that movie, we are happy when we Live in some inception, we are happy when we know that we are not in any inception and living what we want to… probably some would call that as “self-orchestrated” inception.. but it is killing when we know that – I am seeing myself in inception and I don’t want to get kick or I am waiting for outside kick instead of self architecting.

We can write, talk about life in thousands and thousands of words… We can have our own philosophies and fundas about “How to live life”… we can have our simple rules of enjoying life. And all those rules, experiences, fundas are worth to read or hear it coz at the end of the day it is that individual’s view of Life… it is his or her dream… it is his or her experience… it is the journey towards their goal… it is love, it is passion, it is devotion, it is “samarpan”

Hats off to all who have realized their reason of existence and lived or living their life for that very reason!!!

All the best to all who are on the quest of finding the reason!!!

..........And for rest I guess we need to realize to start that quest