समर्पण

क्या सच है, क्या झुठ... क्या वर्तमान क्या भविष्य
जीने के हर प्रयास में करता हुं हर पल ये विचरण।

क्या विश्व है माया, या अपने भुत का भुगतान
हर समय चल रहा... ये विचारों का रण।

धरा से जुडा हुआ, आकाश कि चाह करता,
इस नश्वर शरीर का हर कण
शून्य से निकलकर, शून्य मे लिन हो,
जन्म लेतेही हर जीव ने किया ये समर्पण।

यत्न कर बन सके, हम भी शिष्य पार्थ से
जो दे सके ’भगवन’ हमे "विश्वरुप"दर्शन।

समझु मै "अस्तित्व" को, जानकर समाज-दर्पण
हो युगंधर कि साधना, उसके ही रुप में अर्पण॥

SOAP, Narmada Parikrama and Life....

Does title makes sense to you? Just while watching Friends Joey says to Ross, "Did you check the trail?", Chandler shows him how the trail is important and by the time Ross tries to close the trail, it is all over...
Steven Levitt explains such "trails" in Freakonomics for Sumo pehalawans and many others....
Coming back to SOAP first. In last 8 months Symbian C++ has created always something or the other challenging situations. The ones which I absolutely couldn't forget are 1. Syncing up "Options" button with center button click 2. calculating checksum and now 3rd one in the list is SOAP request... in last 2 times I was kind of "freezed" with those issues. Now one more challenge SOAP, now what ?? There are people targeting you thinking that you are doing nothing but the time-pass and you have got such show-stopper...
Today I felt like crying because nothing was working, there was not a single code snippet explaining how to use that thing in Symbian... on top of it Carbide's internet connection didn't work after all sorts of trials. I felt like shouting, breaking the machine which was in front of me but thanks to "little sense" left with me I didn't any of it.... decided to come back home. Did I try creating code from scratch???? Nahh... I was looking for pointers...
I started driving the bike and suddenly "Narmada Parikrama" came into my mind. In "Narmade Har Har" Jagannathrao Kunte tells countlessssssssssssss examples where he was hurt, there were so many hurdles but then he kept on walking and "narmada maiyya" gave him surprises in terms of help, food and shelter.
That thought reiterated universal truth that no matter what you have to keep on walking, you might be hurt, tired, dejected but you should not stop. The answer to your questions is right there very close to you but you have to move towards it....
There are many thought processes which tells different things to understand "life", to realize our "goal". I think our daily routine is one of them.
Probably you are a Software Engineer or Doctor or Farmer or Carpenter or something else, life teaches you different lessons, it shows you path towards success, it makes you realize that once you drop yours "wants" and do "nishkam karma" you get what you are destined.
What is life? Is it about going abroad? Is it about owning a biig flat and a BMW? Is it about getting appreciated and when you die seeing from nowhere that there are herds coming for your funeral??? What is it?
Did you find the trail???

Time

It's been 6 months I am back in Bharat. Initially I was literally found things different... basically this time I had come back for good... I had experienced something which can not be explained and told, it has to be experienced .
Anyway after coming back I wanted to take part in everything.. i.e. Infosys Foundation, ITMilan, Sayamshakha, Office work i.e. learning new technologies, More responsibilities like CC, DP and whatnot, Help friends, Attending functions, Going places with friends, missed one more thing - going on Ruturang Apartment's committee (which I feel was really not required at that point :()... but all these things gave me a very good lesson, that you can not be part of everything. You have to focus on things on priority basis. You can definitely experience everything but not at a time.
This also explored a proven fact that I am really worst in terms of keeping house clean... I wanted to write my experience of last one year... couldn't do it yet :( and that's not because I am busy but because I am lazy.. that is because I did not manage time...
Finally while adding some videos on iPhone and iPod which Eshan was asking from a long time, I realized why not to write a quick blog post. It really doesn't take more than 30 mins to pen down I mean keyboard down your thoughts :)...
I am sure while writing this blog also I must have gone tangent from one place to another :)
Talking about office... the Vistaraking ("Vistarak" was added as a verb in dictionary in Feb 08 in Houston Yuva Varg :D) has changed my whole approach of working in office.
As told by many great ppl, "Expectations" are the main cause of all sorrows in the world... but that doesn't mean that you don't work, you don't strive for grades, you definitely do but without expecting that it's gonna happen :)
Also finding great qualities in each and every human being has helped in finding yourself always in good company.
I hope to keep the blog updated reagularly... not sure that, this will happen.
I might end up updating the blog after one year.. saying same things :D

for now... bbye

Reason for everything...

Everybody has some agenda in life... for everything they do, for everything they plan. Whether we accept it or not, we all doing everything for "Swarth"....
Main difference comes into picture when we define that "Swarth".
Two people becomes closest or dearest or best friends when their personal agendas compliment each other ............... what am I writing? Isn't it cynical view? Isn't it situational?....
The same thoughts can be counter attacked saying that a person really finds happiness by helping someone. If someone donates blood, what would be his "Swarth"?....
It's a puzzle which we try to unfold for our life. This in turns brings shades to our life.. gray, black, white... colorless...

There is reason for our existence, someone might call it "Personal Agenda", someone might call it "Mission of Life", someone call it "Urge to help the society"... whatever it is... we have to work towards that"reason" to make our life "meaningful".....

Sometimes...

Sometimes I dream to be tennis player and holding any Australian Open, US open, Wimbledon trophy in my hand... sometime I am an Actor making awesome movie which is bringing "change" in the society which is making people "think" and "act" for the betterment of the society...
Sometimes I am poet who has written a beautiful poems/verses which has melted the heart of killer, which had explained the real meaning of "Love"...
Sometimes I am an Investor who is making money like machine, who is predicting every bearish and bullish movement in the market...
but most of the times I am "Me" searching for the "reason behind existence", finding "goal of life", struggling with own "egos".... just the tiny creature who is merely alive, dragging our own self day by day... "think"(?)ing all the times... only "react"ing to the situations and answering own disbelieves for saving self pride in his/her own eyes...
Again sometimes when I realise this I cry... I run... I scream...
In the end..... I go into the Loop of hibernation

अंधार..... कि प्रकाश

संध्याकाळ्ची वेळ, कामावरुन घरी चाललो होतो. संध्याकाळ असुनही सुर्याचा प्रकाश अगदी प्रखर आणि स्वच्छ होता. चालता चालता सतत सुर्याकडे बघत होतो. एकदम प्रकाश प्रखर झाला आणि डोळ्यासमोर लख्ख प्रकाश होता... पुढुन चालत येणारया व्यक्तिंच्या फ़क्त आक्रुत्या दिसत होत्या... उंच, ठेंगण्या, जाड, बारीक....

मनात आले कि डोळ्यासमोर अंधेरी आली का? किंबहुना खरा प्रकाशचं होता तो. ज्यामधे हे वास्तव कळत होते कि समोर दिसणारे सारे काही नुसतेच चेहरे आहेत, सगळे सारखे. ज्यामागे आपण इतके धावतोय तो अंधार, डोळ्यापुढे जे आत्ता दिसते आहे ते वास्तव...

मुक्तछंद

पुन्हा एक पान, पुन्हा काहि शब्द, एकत्र येउन बनलेली वाक्य... निरर्थक वाक्य, चंचल वाक्य, सुसुत्र वाक्य, अर्थ मात्र एकच - कल्लोळ. ना व्रुत्त, ना अलंकार, ना लय, ना ताल.... मुक्तछंद. ना दिशा, ना ध्येय, ना उत्साह, ना सुत्र... मुक्तछंद. ना प्रेम, ना द्वेष, ना स्पर्धा, ना आकांक्षा.... मुक्तछंद.
कुठवर, कशासाठी, कुणासाठी, कां? कुठे विसावा नाहीचं का? कुठे वळण नाहीच का? कुठे दिशा नाहीच का?
वेड म्हणजे काय? एक विसावा... सतत असंबद्धपणे फ़िरणारया पात्रांचा एक सुसुत्र खेळ. एक म्रुगजळ, जे नाही त्यासाठीचा कधीही न संपणारा पाठलाग. एक वावटळ, दहाही दिशांनी येणारया जाणारया प्रकाशासोबत स्पर्धा करतांना होणारी तडफड. एक शुन्य, ज्याला सुरवात नाही, शेवट नाही, ज्याची खोली नाही, जाडी नाही... वेड.. एक भावनासंचय...